Tuesday, September 21, 2010

It's been a while...

Ok, ok, I know.. It's been forever since I've posted.. and I'm sorry.   I've just been so sick... not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing.. because I'm PREGNANT!!!   I am now 7 weeks along and I'm due May 12th... exciting!!!  I just want to skip these first few months though.  All I want to do now is sleep and throw up.. that's about it..

Other than that... there's not much else going on right now.  Just work...school.. and trying to do it all while pregnant, tired and grumpy!  I'll post more later...

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Pee on a stick...

Ok, so me and hubby have been trying to get pregnant for 4 months now... I've wanted to be pregnant so bad that I've had many false pregnancy symptoms... well for the past 5 days now I've been really nauseous in the mornings, my period is not due until next week, but I decided to take a test anyways just to see if it would show up.

Well.. GUESS WHAT!!!  There was a very very faint line.. I thought I was seeing things, so I had my mom take a look at it.. and she saw it too!!!   I know it's not definate yet, I still could have an early miscarriage or something like that, but at least there was a line.. that's better than what I was getting before!!!

I'm so excited.. I really hope this means baby in 9 months!!  I'm hoping for a boy, but I'll be happy with whatever I get :)

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

30 Days of Truth - Day 10

Day 10 - Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know.

Well.. I don't really have anyone who I need to let go... but I do have one person I wish I didn't know.

This situation is kinda confusing...I wish I never met my daughter's dad.  On the other hand, I'm not sure what I would do without my daughter!    He can be such an idiot at times, and it really makes me mad some of the things he puts my daughter through.  I just wish I could have her, but never met him....make sense?

The latest news on him... well he's back in town now, but who knows for how long.  My daughter spent this past weekend at his house.  Well... here's the story.  I  had just bought her a new bible... and she wanted to take it over there to show her dad, so I let her.  Well apparently both her and her dad decided to practice writing in it.  Now a  year old writing in a book... a slap on the hand, and you just tell them that it's not a good thing to do... on the other hand.. a 35 year old man?????   Should I really have to tell a 35 year old man not to write in books.. especially if they're not his?????  Unbelievable.  That's all I can say.  I can't believe he's so dumb as to teach our daughter that it's ok to write in books. She only had the thing for 2 days, and now it's got writing all through it....  I'm thinking of just giving it back to him and say here keep this, since you decided to write in it.. I'll go buy a new one that I will keep looking nice.... sometimes, I'm surprised at how dumb a human being can actually be....

Anyways, back to the subject... yes, he is the one person in my life that I wish I didn't know, and had never met.....he is the single most stressful thing in my life.... ha most people would think working full time, going to school full time, and being a good wife and mommy was stressful.... ha ha ha that is a piece of cake compared to the stress he puts me through....

I guess I just need to learn to not let it get to me.. not as easy as it sounds.. and I'm not really sure how to do it!